Cause when I am weak, your strength is completeit's perfect, completely all I need, sufficient for me.Your grace and your peace are perfectcompletely all I need, You're all that I need.-Adie Camp, SufficientI remember a long time ago my mom telling me that children are a tool that God uses to make his children more like Him. I always knew that when my time for children came, God would definitely be working with me on my patience. However, in my naiveness, I think I thought that would come later on--maybe toddlerhood, certainly not in the newborn phase.Boy, was I ever so wrong.Ya know, there's a lot of things people don't tell you in regards to having a kid. A lot of people portray parenthood as this instant unconditional love that automatically makes you the perfect parent. (Maybe that happens for some people) While I have definitely found that unconditional love to exist--stronger than I ever thought possible---I also learned something very quickly:I am still a human, and my love is imperfect.In my own selfishness, I struggle when Molly won't go back to sleep in the middle of the night, because I want to climb back into bed and sleep. In my own selfishness, it is hard for me when she wakes up at an inopportune time, because I want to finish my sewing project, or finish straightening my hair, etc. If I'm going to be candid here, those moments of putting her first above myself do not come naturally.When I first realized this, I really (really really really) struggled and beat myself up over it. In fact, I paced around my apartment with tears streaming down my face because "I'm not a good mom." (the voice of the enemy)But what I've come to realize is that of course my love is imperfect. It's always going to be, because I am a human. It is only through HIM that my love can be made perfect. It is only when I rely on HIS strength alone that I can love Molly with a selfless heart and mind.I'm thankful today for this realization. His strength truly is sufficient for me.