On my Heart & SALE!

For once, I was able to wake up this morning and not scour Craigslist and make a zillion phone calls.

We have a place to live. I guess it's not entirely official since we haven't signed the lease, but we go tomorrow to do that. 

There have been many days and nights of tears, anxiety, desperate   prayers, wondering why we are so crazy, feeling lost, confused, scared. I am just so relieved to have a place to go that we can call our own. 

I never once doubted that we would have a roof over our head. I knew God would provide and take care of us. But I also knew that sometimes the way He provides doesn't always look the way we would chose. And if I can be honest, knowing that made it pretty difficult to pray. 

 This may seem strange, but through all of this, I have come to realize just how deep my love for this little girl goes.

I know she is sensing the changes. Her room being torn apart, boxes everywhere. She's had a few rough nights of sleep--waking up and not being able to get back to sleep on her own. She wants to be held. To be close to me. 

In wanting the very best for her, I want her to have stability. I want her home to be a safe place that she can count on to feel loved and protected. 

If it were just Chris and I going through all these transitions, (possibly living with other people, moving three times within the next year, living with boxes stacked up to our necks) that would be one thing. But with Molly, everything changes. My stomach literally aches--it twists and turns in so much pain--just thinking about not being able to provide her stability. 

I know that in the very end, all that matters is that she is safe, alive, breathing, and has a full belly. I mean, basic needs will be met. But what goes beyond that is just what twists my gut. 

I love this little girl with every single fiber of my being. I want nothing but the very, very best for her. It may seem like an oxymoron, but it is a painful love. 

NEway.

There's a little piece of my heart this Thursday afternoon. <3 font="font">

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On a different note, I've decided to have a MOVING SALE! 

Everything in the shop is 20% off with this code: 

MOVING20

So head on over there now and shop your heart out. 

(coupon code will be valid through August 6th, 2012)


.dolls.

.baby headbands.

 .adult headbands.

.swaddle blankets.