Today, Molly has an appointment with a cardiologist to have an ultrasound of her heart. Her pediatrician has heard a heart murmur at her last couple of well-visit check-ups, and wants to have it checked out. It's one of those things that could be absolutely nothing, or it could be something serious like a hole in her heart.
I can't help but think back to the song that I wrote for her at our formal dedication when she was 5 months old. (I say formal, because we had obviously had already dedicated her to the Lord. In fact, it's a continual thing, hence this post. *grin*)
Anyway, the second verse of the song says,
There have been times we've been scared.
There have been times where we've not known what to do.
And I imagine there'll be many more times,
when there is nothing we can do but to cling to Him.
and the chorus:
We give you to Him.
We give you to Him.
He gave you to us, and now we give you back to Him.
These last few weeks have been somewhat of a battle in my heart. I believe what I wrote in that song with all of my heart, but there's that human part of me that worries. BUT, Jesus commands us in Matthew 6 NOT to worry. So it's a continual battle... "Jesus, I give her and her heart to you." "But what if she needs heart surgery?" "But what if she has heart problems for the rest of her life?" "Jesus, I give her and her heart to you."
The other day, I was listening to this song in the car, and the bridge hit me like a ton of bricks:
I am yours. I am yours. All my days, Jesus, I am yours.
And I thought, yes, Jesus, I am yours. For all of my days.
And Jesus, my daughter is yours. Not only do I give her to you, but my job as a parent is to show her with my life how to live that out.
I hope and pray with all that is within me that I am able to come back and tell you all that Molly has a perfectly healthy, normal heart.
But the faith that I must have, the faith that I want to show my daughter, is that
even if she doesn't
We will still give the Lord glory.
We will still praise His name.
We will still continue to live our lives as an offering to Him.
Thanks in advance for your prayers. :)