2.09.2012

Honesty

I call this one The Money Shot.

It's been a rough week, ya'll. And I hesitate to say that because it's only Thursday. BUT, tomorrow we see Grammie, so all will be ok. *grin*

I don't know if this is a normal struggle of motherhood or it's just me and my type A personality, but I have an extremely difficult time finding balance. 

Maybe it's because right now I wear so many hats...
Wife, Mom, Worship Leader, Shop owner, Friend, Cook, Maid (haha), etc.

If it's ok (which it is, because it's my blog *grin*) I'm just going to be honest and tell you that many times, I dream of what it would be like if I could just pack up my little family and run away


But when I bring it all before the Lord, He quietly and gently whispers, 
"This is exactly where I want you." 


My gut response? "Really, Lord?"

After a quick heart check...
"Then, that's exactly where I want to be."


So, if this is it, Jesus, then I beg of you, give me your strength. 
I cannot do this on my own.


 My dear friends, I say to you, thank you for "listening." 
You will now be rewarded with more pictures of my sweet baby. :)



singing.




4 comments:

  1. the singing picture is adorable! I appreciate your heart ames :)

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  2. I love love love the money shot :o) And the last picture- it just makes my heart happy!

    It seems like my heart keeps going back to Isaiah these days...but here is what I have looked to this week:

    "I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said 'you are my servant' I have chosen you and not rejected you. So do not fear for I am with you; do not be dismayed for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand...For I am the Lord your God who taken hold of your right hand and says to you 'Do not fear, I will help you.' " Isaiah 41:9-10 &13

    I love the visual of Jesus literally taking my hand, looking deep into my eyes and saying with compassion and love "do not fear, I will help you". These last few weeks I have even pictured him with tears in his eyes as he says that because he sees my pain and my fear and longs for me to trust him.
    In addition to the Lord (who truly is all we need) we will face this together.

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  3. I need to get to Ohio STAT!!!! Plus you need to meet my bf Andrew I need your approval :)

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  4. She is the cutest ever. Just beautiful!!! It seriously makes me hope that this baby is a girl, just so I can dress her up all cute. :-)

    I fear you are going to have trouble with the boys when she is older. ;-)

    And love looking into your heart and your conversation with the Lord. I've had many of those lately. Learning contentment. And the deep purpose of my role as a Mom. Glad there are lots of Mommy friends (and bloggers) to share this season with!

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